When I started writing this new-ish blog, I was very focused on what doesn't work. The bad sides of positive, the good sides of allowing the so-called negative... I was planning to write about the awful side of social media and the need of slowing down and simplifying too, in very harsh words, which is why i picked up my alter ego, Sir Ass. To say things that aren't said outloud when involved with the "spiritual" part of life. Then I started thinking... Why? What do I get from it? Wouldn't it be more beneficial to share what works? And focus on myself instead. What I like, what I do, how I manage this life thing? Gods know how long I have been focusing outside of myself. Ofcourse, even the subject of "I" seems to be no no in some places, but what if you have been trying so hard and so long, that you have forgotten yourself?
This here is maybe 5th blog I am starting. I am very good at starting them, just the follow through is wobbly. Like with pretty much everything in my life. So this time, instead of deleting and creating a new one, i decided to make my rebirthing processes public too. I have absolutely no idea where i am going, this is a healing journey, no one knows the destination of those. I always tried to be right and give useful advice and options to consider in various subjects, as I do have huge information bank to tap on in my brain. But people don't always want or even need advice, they want to be heard, they want to explore their own depths. They want to know that it is possible to make changes.
So I am going to explore the depths. And I am not going to limit the blog to one subject. Whatever you think you are, there is always more. And even the subjects i know tickle my interest are quite wide range of things. I do want to write about the social media and slowing things down too though, but I think as my wounds are healing and getting nice crust on them, with delicate new skin forming underneath, I am seeing more sides in the story than one.
It is a tough journey, after being disappointed in people, including yourself, to start looking for the way up. For a while it was very hard for me, to not be bitter or jealous, when it seemed everyone else is climbing up the ladder that you can't even see yet. And on those moments, social media is pretty nasty place to be in. I still have a profile for the hobby groups, for the likeminded people, even tho I dont have personal account under my own name anymore. I started thinking that the personal should indeed be personal. Not a 24/7 showcase for people you hardly even interact with more than occasionally thumbs up in facebook. But for the hobby stuff and event tracking, social media is awesome! I still notice the tendency to get too wired up when online a lot though, the frantic need to always have something to do or think or read and being unable to calm the mind or yourself down... So it is good to take breaks, go outside, do something less fast moving, like gardening, or arts/crafts, calendar plans (one of my newest hobbies is Bullet Journaling, altho I do it bit simplified). I feel that the balance is good in everything. Being online, being in the body, being in the mind, being spiritual, you name it.
So in short, I have no idea where I am going or if my story helps or even triggers any interest in anyone, but I am going to write about the stuff important to me, and hopefuly get some pictures included as well eventually. Right now i am lacking proper working space, so I get lazy with the layouts and things, as I am not using proper computer, which would make things easier. I am exercising my wish muscles about it tho, will see. Anyway, the blog name changes a bit, and layouts maybe too when i get my computer out again. Otherwise, world just got bigger. :)
(And we are back with creator being "Saga" - the mother of Sir Ass)
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