Merry meet (now lets stop the bullshit)

The journey is not always walk in the park

with sunny paths and bird's singing,

sometimes it sucks
from the very beginning.

But if you are brave and keep walking

you may indeed bad ass your way out of just talking.

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Hello. I am Sir Ass, and very frustrated with the spiritual state of things these days. Don't get me wrong, I love my crystals and cards and herbal teas as much as the rest of you, if anything in my life goes near to addiction, it's those things. I do my drum journeys (without psychoactive substances) and energy heal when it is called for and read my share of metaphysical/self help/magic books when i find them. I am also healing depressionist, addict, anxious mess, get a bad rash from a word "namaste" and have pretty much avoided going to yoga classes because I cant stand most of the phenomenon around it. I also respect native americans and other indigenous people enough not to even pretend to use any of their knowledge or rituals in my " spirit work", which I dont do for money, as it mostly pains me to see all the "shamans" and shit popping up like mushrooms in the rainy weather asking for money to perform this or that or to heal your life...

But when it comes to healing your life, your whole life, instead of cheap tricks to get you going for a moment. Absolutely No one has your answers. No. One. It is YOU who do the work. And it is not always pretty, it is not always "just take what resonates", it is deep work, soul work, not just adding a crystal here and other there and calling yourself whatever. It is not just positive thinking and ignoring the problems, it is about taking the responsibility of your shit. It is not always easy flow, especially if you have traumas and unhealthy patterns. In fact, you probably need to go through a lot of uncomfortable realizations with no other help than keeping the goal in mind. You have to be brutally honest with yourself first and foremost. You dont have to be all love and light, the real word is both dark and light. You dont have to forgive your abusers and pretend everything is ok when it obviously isnt, you have to accept yourself and forgive yourself and stop trying to be perfect and ideal image of whatever you think you are supposed to be instead of what you are. Or you can start with just, for once, giving yourself a chance to be you. The not perfect you, who doesnt know or care a shit about planetary aspects and om shantis. You don'd have to keep your mind tuned into positive 24/7 in fear of attracting something you don't want in your life. I have a news flash here: Life is not fair. Even if you think perfect and be perfect, it still can fuck you up anytime. Sure there is equal chances that it doesnt, but you can't control it by being perfect image of a law of attraction spiritual traveler.

But then again... thinking positive does give more hope and willingness to try things out. Most of the things ARE possible anyway, with right kind of action steps. Some things aren't, but that is no reason not to try. Just know what and why you want to try and what you can gain from it. You CAN learn from every failure, some of those are necessary too. You CAN change your thinking and behavior patterns. Things arent black and white, you can be both-and sort of person. You don't have to ditch your common sense and reason to be spiritual. You dont have to adopt everything in this great era of spiritual nonsense. You can ground yoursef on your own values and start building from there.

And one more thing:
spirituality, shamanism, witchery, energy healing.... it is not equipment sports. Only thing you really need, is your mind. Or, if that has become a curse word for you, after getting deep into "heartbased" spirituality, work with your soul, heart, mind, body, connected consciousness, god, universe... you dont need anything but yourself and your connection to everything that is.

Sincerely yours,
Sir Ass

(*It's March now, but since i wrote over my test post from December, it's like a voice from the distant past. Ahh, the time travel...)